我的秘密森林~

天暗了

鸟儿睡了

夜深了

我好累了

口好渴

找点喝的

你要的

是什么呢

我乱了

我怎么了

你走了

你已走了

不舍得

怎么舍得

失败者

我的自责

还想着

依然念着

没用的

不是我的

勉强着

只会挨饿

我输了

还是爱着

我认了

放不开的

只是你

温暖的呵护

  wow!! such a time din blog’ing d… d last post is abt 1 week b4.. haha.. but stil rmb tat b4 exam alr write abt all my down mood in.. but then forgot 2 save it.. haiz.. alr past juz forgot it~ haha :p

  juz finish d exam.. feel so so so happy.. but after break stil got exam.. haiz,. need 2 study at home.. but at least can rest n leave mlc 4 a moment.. really feel stress n bored at here, dunoe y!!! d weird feeling cum back 2 me again.. shit la.. really feel tat i change 2 another person.. look so ‘gu pi’ omg.. i hate it!!! hate d feel… n think d past once again.. haiz~ so ‘ku ming’…

  a special day~ sleep late 4 d morning class :p ..d BAC class think not 2 miss it.. then stil prepare n go d 2nd tutirial class..alah.. who noe,, d lecture din cum.. then juz cum 2 campus not more than 30min then can bac liao.. fei fei lo.. bac home straight away sleep lo.. not bother so much liao..haha..after tat go meeting n had my dinner with them.. haha.. long time din eat those hao liao d.. wow!! so delicious~ yum yum hahaha.. then jongker walk,, n then go pipi house play mahjong.. hahaha.. crazy!! watch vcd sumore.. but then they alr fallasleep like pig when watch,, haha.. juz me like stupid thr watch myself~~ hahahahaha.. do d stupid thing again,, after watch vcd.. on9 n chatting n write tis here… u tot me really dunwan sleep n bac meh.. sumtime n sumthing not decide my our own de..

  wow!! 6a.m here!!! n had a heavy raining here.. haha.. is a nice weather 2 sleep.. haha.. miss my bao bao man.. hahaha.. 5 hour later i can back my jb home lo… FEEL so happy.. long time no back d.. alr think tat whr i wan 2 go during d holiday~ red box is waiting 4 me!!! new start.. is a chance 2 recharge my power d.. hehe~ happy holiday o~

  y d sad thing always keep in mind n hard 2 forget? but d happy time n thing r go so fast~~   the day b4 yday.. wake up in the early morning.. taking my big bag n start my kl trip.. i m happy n excited!! really happy tat can meet all my best fren thr.. stil rmb tat we playing ice sketing at sunway.. haha.. damn fun!! cos juz step on d ice no long i fall down d.. haha.. my frens keep laugh on me.. noneed 2 say.. d second time fall down lagi cham.. hahaha.. so stupid man.. haha.. but slowly n slowly i noe d skill d.. but my leg canot tahan liao la.. so pain.. so bad.. juz can c them play d.. after had a nice meal.. is d movie time lo.. "fanstatic 4" haha.. funny.. but d most funny thing is our "underwear 4" he he.. around 1.30a.m all of us go swimming at d downtair of my fren’s house..  all d guy din bring enuf pait la.. haha.. juz can wear underwear 2 swim lo..wakaka.. not more than 10min scold by security d.. haha.. actually not scold la.. just ask us not be so noisy..taking alot photo thr.. especially d "underwear 4" pic… haha!! tat r so memorable~~ alot of 1st time with them.. alot of crazy time with them.. tats hard 2 find others 2 replace them.. my best n truely fren!! d only fren tat i be myself with.. d only fren tat i share all with…i cherish all d time with them….. always here pray 4 them..

* alot n alot memorable thing in my mind.. but tat r hard 2 express.. really happy tat hv them 2 be my fren!! bcos of them i never feel lonelyness…..

when i’m by myself,

i don’t care abt others,

the only thing i hear is just myself…

i don’t care abt the scenery outside,

i can be fragile, can be sad,

can see myself..

as what i use to look like…..

That r so meaningful.. it really express my feeling!!

"just to be wat u wan 2 be.. "

human r so dishonest.. juz do n say depend on others.. they forgot d true.. forgot d trust.. forgot themselve~~ 

i m by myself just 2 be wat i wan 2 b n do… so.. r u??

  tired tired n tired~~ finally done my 1 assignment.. but d another assignment come.. lei lo!!! after doing asignment wana do tutorial lagi.. feel so bored!!! aiks~ isit d day juz past like tat.. ntg special man… juz happy n special tat go for gym tis few day.. feel so happy after gym.. but then whole body pain!!! wan bcome more thin n more pretty tat is d only way la.. haha.. :p

  thr r some confusing problem in my mind!! told myself tat muz b hardworking in my study n less 2 join all those club activity.. but then ask myself many time isit i ll happy v my decision?? i really dunoe.. feel lose something if din join d activity.. mayb i m d 1 cant juz stay at home n study..  but if i really join tat i m sure tat my result ll bcome poor n poor… anyway,, "juz walk a step n see a step" juz join when i m free la.. haha… gambateh!! dun think too much.. tmr ll b better.. i tell myself tat…

  day by day

it won’t wait 4 u

  time by time

i’ m rush of it

  go on and go on

i’ m tired of it

  again and again

i juz wan 2 rest

  waiting and waiting

it juz gone without warning

cherish wat u hv~~

  another 1.30a.m~~ thr r different feeling n different mood tday.. juz not a gud feeling tday!! ask me y?? thr r kind of reason….                                             

ppl say tat :

fren r care with each other,

fren r help with each other,

fren r understand with each other,

fren r share everything with each other,

happy 2gather,

suffering 2gather,

cry 2gather….

isit u r d 1 tat do such thing v ur fren 2gather?? mayb u r..

b patient!!! i ll find u 1 day~

patience of human hv a limit~~ again n again!!! i juz wan live in peaceful life.. pls!!! i think 1 day i ll bcome crazy… at tat time dun blame me lo~~

   1st time go bp~ any special thr?? haha ntg special!!!! but its fun 2 shopping at "mid valley2" :p, make new fren, talk overnight, drink n eat alot….

  so so so paiseh tat 1st day juz reach bp then feel dizzy n vomit.. haha~ so paiseh tat all d hao liao gone~~ :p "a group of sheep cross d road, got how many cross d road??" " open close open close open close open or close?? " fei fei game again!! wakakak.. c d blur face of wei xiong.. haha.. its cute n fun!!! :p sorry ya wei xiong.. nex time ur turn 2 cheat ppl lo!! hehe~~ juz go bp 4 two days alr spend RM170 d la.. so sad man.. tis month need 2 eat roti d la..  but happy tat buy d shirt n jeans la..like it so much~~ got d second time 2 bp again?? mayb yes mayb tat juz my 1st n my last…

  after d trip really get something important.. noe my fren more deeply n noe d word more clearly.. wat i means? juz i noe tat.. hahaha… y human mind is so so so complicated!!! y it cant b more simple?? lazy 2 think abt tat….. juz think n do wat i m surpose 2 think n do!!! thr r so suffering tat something or some1 are not under control appear in my mind.. hate tat feel.. ABC~ it need something o some1 2 replace d something o some1 tat make u sad.. i blif of tat~~

  i write it in my diary b4 :

        Human r not born for themselve,

         all the happiness n sadness r depend others,

        there r many kind of human in tis world,

       u won be happy if u wan 2 take k n understand all of them…

isit express tat how cruel the human being??

thr r sad to c tat..

y sudd feel so "gan xing" ha ha.. mayb c n heard alot recently…

reality!!?! ppl always say : zhi ren zhi mian bu zhi xin~~ i m now really blif of tat..

not all d thing r d gud tat u think ~~ think b4 u do it…                                       

i think of it now~

   happy is 1 day

   sad oso 1 day

   y dun u happy whole day

  but choose sad whole day?

   things r easy..

   juz dun think 2 much

   juz b urself..

   do wat u think is right

  wat u feel is true~~

wat!! "gan xing" again… ha ha.. dun think 2 much la..  :p

  So happy tat d orientation camp finally past~ really damn tired as a leader 4 food division!!! haiz.. m i regret 2 taking tis post?? i think i m not,, although cant join d game in d camp.. but really happy 2 c all my commitee r so enjoyable 4 their responsible… really wan 2 thks them!! bside tat,, wan 2 say sorry 2 them if i got make any mistake o make any troble 2 them :p.. damn tired 4 tis few days~~ all my brain is blank!!! wat i m thinking?? all d food n food!! haha,, nowander bcom fat n fat :(  open close open close open close open o close?? haha d fei fei game!! but blur on it b4,,, bodoh sial!!! haha..but is fun~ so memorable when c d same place n d ppl.. all d place tat v play d game b4.. waw!! a yr ago.. really so memorable.. but it remind me tat i m old d.. not d alpha student d la.. haha.. sudd feel so lonely.. dunoe y bcom dun wish 2 talk.. haha.. all my fren bcom far n far from me.. at 1st feel tat is usual n i sure can make new fren.. n i won feel sad without fren.. but i m wrong.. mayb i really old d la.. no more energy d.. hehe..i juz noe tat dun get all d thing 2 serious.. juz b happy always.. make brain blank oso not d bad.. tmr ll b better,, i always trust tat….